Are you serious??

Couple gets arrested for not paying a tip...even though they had bad service! (Remind me to NEVER go to that restaurant!!)



Oh..as a side note...NO MORE pathophysiology papers until next semester. Finally, I have Wednesday night back!!

When Answers aren't Enough

Last night one of my bloggie friends (and relative by marriage)left me a comment and said that the song "When Answers aren't enough" had helped her when she went through hard times. I have heard it before, but I figured it would be a good idea to listen to it again. It touched my heart!



Thanks Debbie for the comment!!

Also, in reading my devotional this morning, there was an illustration about needlepoint, and how it looks like a mess from one side. Then it said "We question God, asking why life is such a mess, railing against every emotional "knot" and questioning the circumstances that don't seem to match our lives. I can almost hear Him say, "Yes, but you should see it from my point of view. It is beautiful!"

It was just what I needed!

Feeling alone and missing Mike.

Feelings are strange things. They always seem to crop up when you least expect it. When I want to feel a particular feeling, it eludes me, and then, at the most inconvenient time...there it is.

Tonight I feel sad. I feel alone. I miss my Husband. I wonder how long I can deal with this. I wish I could just go to bed, because sleeping ALWAYS helps me feel better, but alas...I have one more pathophysiology paper to do for school.

I feel selfish. So many people have it worse than I do, but right now, in this moment, with these feelings...I don't really care.

I look at my sister and realize that when Mike went to jail she was in college, and not even dating. Now she is not only married, but just had a baby. Don't get me wrong. I am SO happy for her, but looking at her life makes that fact that my life (or marriage anyway) is on hold so much more poignant. It hurts.

Strong...that is what some people have called me, if only they know. I am anything but strong. I have no idea who I am or who I want to become. Sometimes I have to ask, “Will this nightmare ever end? Will I ever wake up, or see this part of my life in the “rearview mirror” as one well meaning, but not so helpful person said to me. (You can keep your stupid cliché's to yourself, thank you. I know them all by heart.) You keep telling me “You can do it”, now tell me how to do it. I really don't know....at least not today.

Pictures...Finally

Sorry it has taken soooo long, but I did finally get the pictures of Julia on my computer. Just watch the video below to see a slide show of Jenny, Steven and Julia.



Here is an update on little Julia. She went to Youngstown hospital shortly after she was born (because of her low birth weight and early delivery) She stayed there until Monday and was then moved to Boardman. Yesterday they had to put in a feeding tube because she was not eating enough, but they say she is doing really good and the doctors are happy. Jenny said she overheard one of the doctors talking about Julia and he couldn't remember her last name so he just called her "Julia Cutie Pie" which of course made Jenny's day.
Anyway...keep praying for the baby....and Jenny and Steven, as I am sure it is hard to have a baby and not be able to take her home!!

Its a GIRL!!

After church I hopped in my car and saw I had a missed call on my cell phone from my brother in law. I actually started shaking when I saw it, because it almost surely meant that a new little person, that would someday call me aunt, was born. Sure enough, Jenny had a little girl. Her name is Julia Mae (ahem, my middle name is Mae as well..just thought I'd add that) she weighed 4.5 lbs and only required 4 pushes. I am so thankful that all is well, even though she was born early..and I CANNOT wait to go meet her tomorrow. I will update with pictures as soon as I can!!

Baby Troyer is on the way!!!

I just got a phone call about 5 minutes ago. It was my sister...informing me that the baby shower planned for tomorrow isn't going to happen. Evidently the baby decided he or she wanted to be there to join the fun. If you haven't got the picture yet, I will spell it out to you plainly, JENNY IS IN LABOR!! Yes, it is early, and all..but I am SOOOOOOO excited. Instead of traveling out to Ohio to co-host a dull baby shower (oops, did I say that??) I will be traveling out to Ohio to meet my new Niece or Nephew. Sounds so much more exciting, huh!!

I got a WOW!! (and other random thoughts)

So.....last night I was complaining about all the work I have to do before clinicals. I got it all done AND today my teacher (AKA Killer Miller) wrote WOW on one of my papers. One word, thats all it took to make my day.
Oh, and I must mention that I have ANOTHER DAY OFF of school this week. I feel like I have hit the jackpot. I guess I better not get too used to it, but I am thankful for it when it happens. Oh, and as a bonus, usually when a teacher cancels clinical we have to do paperwork to make up for it, my teacher says that since she has us do so much paperwork anyway we don't have to do any!!

Also....this week a song that I have listened to many many times blessed me! I have had a couple of difficult situations to deal with and I am ashamed to admit that I did not always make the right decisions. I was really feeling discouraged and very unchristianlike when the song "I've Already Won the War" came on my stereo. The line in the Chorus that says, "I may lose a battle now and then, but I've already won the war" was what really stuck out to me and gave me the confidence to keep plugging away.

Here are the Lyrics:

THE WORLD'S A BATTLE FIELD, WHERE WE MUST FIGHT EACH DAY, TO OVER COME THE EVIL ONE, AND SEND HIM OWN HIS WAY, LIKE A MAN WHO IS ALMIGHTY GOD, AND THERE IS NO GREATER NEAR OR FAR, I MAY LOSE THE BATTLE NOW AND THEN, BUT I'VE ALREADY WON THE WAR.


2) NOW WHEN YOUR AFRAID AND ALL ALONE, AND SEEMS THAT NO ONE CARES, THE DAILY TASK OF GETTING BY HAS CAUSE YOU TO DESPAIR, JUST TAKE GOD'S WORD THAT'S IN YOUR HEART, AND ON HIS PROMISE STAND, YOU MAY LOSE THE BATTLE NOW AND THEN BUT THE VICTORY IS IN GODS HAND

CHORUS
YOU CAN HAVE THIS CONFIDENCE, THAT HELPS TO SEE ME THROUGH, IF YOU WILL GIVE HIM RESIDENCE, AND LET HIM LIVE INSIDE OF YOU, HE HASN'T PROMISE THAT IT'S EASY, BUT SALVATION WORTH THE START, I MAY LOSE THE BATTLE NOW AND THEN, BUT I'VE ALREADY WON THE WAR

Whining Wednesday!

Its official...I HATE Wednesdays. I really should be doing homework instead of this, but I am tired of ABG's, CBC's, and pathophysiology's. (If you do not know what these are, consider yourself blessed!) I know, I know...everyone has to go through pain to reach the goal...but this is a pain. (In case you don't know, Wednesday is the day before clinical at school and I have to do ALL KINDS of research about my patients before I go to clinical tomorrow, I have been working on it since 4 PM and I am not done yet.)
To add to that, on my way to school I was rerouted for a parade, however I am directionally challanged and DO NOT know my way around Butler. UGH! I was late and we had a quiz..so it cut down on the time I had to take the quiz. BUMMER.
Then, on the way to the hospital to get my assignment, I came up behind an accident and hit and run...so what did I do?? I chased that stinker that took off and got his plate number. I hope he gets in serious trouble.